We must keep trusting God, regardless of what happens in our lives
By Peter Kaye |
Chapter 14 Page 297
No, you can keep your God. It looks like it works for you. But what real trouble have you had? And that girl, Sue, she's got her mum, her kid, and nice people like you around. God hates street shit...’
‘You mustn't think like that,’ Janet interrupted, ‘He loves you no less than me or anyone else... I don't know why you suffered as you did. There are many things about God we just cannot fathom. We have to trust and believe he never stops loving us. And that he's always with us. Particularly when we're hurt or in trouble.’
‘That be a lot of comfort as someone tries to split you in two... When you feel blood running down the back of your legs.’
A quick glance at Charlene made the inadequacy of Janet's words clear. ‘I'm sorry, I know what I'm saying might not help right now, but it is what I believe. And it did end, didn't it?’
‘Yeah. I call the shots now. And get paid for it.’ Charlene looked at Janet scornfully. ‘I think you believe in God because he's always looked after you. Because he be giving you an easy life. You've never been testing him to see what he does when you're really in the shit. Maybe the worst thing that's been happening to you is when some whore steals your sweetheart.’
‘My mum died.’ Janet bit her lip. ‘That wasn't good. The woman who married Dad is unfaithful, and she hates me. And I've hurt him because he knows that I got involved with another woman, slept with Peter and lied about the trip to Ireland... But despite all this, all my mistakes, wickedness, I know Jesus keeps on forgiving me. Even though I don't deserve it.’